after watching the 11.30pm show, there's no more last bus for me.. we went to sit outside the cafe cartel at ps. that's when we started to sort of like talk about our 'life stories'. well, there's no specific topic la, just say whatever we want lorz... come to think of it, i do enjoy this kind of stuff... i mean just sitting around and just listen to people or just talk.. usually i prefer people asking me then i answer coz don't really know how to start talking about myself..
think it's rather weird when you get to know someone whom you realise you have quite a number of things in common with.. it's like you're somehow seeing yourself in another being and it's amazing how you get 'disgusted' with 'yourself'... i guess i'm still learning about myself? tying to understand myself better ba.. up til now i don't dare to say i know myself. sometimes i feel that i just don't want to face the real thing you see.. it's kind of hard to tell. maybe starting an open diary is not a bad way for me to open up myself? at least i can try to express myself, try to say what i feel not comfortable enough to say in front of people?
as you can see, there's so many question marks.. i'm still on the search ba, actually i do feel lost. right now i don't know what i am feeling towards this person, not sure whether what i did was right or wrong. in fact, i think there's no right or wrong, it's just how i'm going to deal with it after my decision.. after my action.. i'm also not sure whether i can handle this well. sure, i think there's nothing wrong with telling someone how you feel towards the person but you know sometimes you just cannot. you have many other things to consider about. haha...
i think there's probably something i can be sure of. i don't know why but i just cannot bring myself to tell anyone what i am really facing now. not even my closest friend or relatives. i think i'll just have to figure it out somehow, by myself. but right now, i choose to run away from it...
today inez, sheldon,benjamin and zhipeng came over to play mahjong.. they only played i round... coz sheldon needs to leave early... he's booking in tonight. haiz, seems like commando training really very tough sia.. my goodness, he actually lost 10kg! he looks thin la... while zhipeng and benjamin looks rather fit... as in, they got more 'rou'. haha~ well, my father completed the round of mahjong when don has to leave early.. since they started late.. hee, duno who win who lost.. but my father lost $4.30.. haha.. (='_'=)
Thursday 17 April 2003
jOhNnY eNgLiSh~!
yet another boring day at work... the first two hours passed rather quickly coz esther extended her shift till 2 pm. (coz ben's girlfriend got fever so he took urgent leave) today new muffins and cakes and brownies came so we cleared all the remaining ones from the display. after the supervisor(albert) packed the stuff that he wants, esther and me divided the rest in to 2 portions and 'da bao' them home.. ^hAppIe~!^ =)
after work i went home for dinner then went out again meet jasc and sean at cineleisure to watch movie, johnny english. actually wanted ask kelvin join us since he book out today but he's too tired you see... after all those trainings.. ya, so the 3 of us went to watch lorz.. it's really farni man. if you're on the search for a good laugh you definitely have to go watch this show! =P
"dRaW a cIrCle aRouNd tHe nAmE oF tHe pErSoN yOu liKe iNstEaD oF a HeaRt bEcAuSe a HeaRt mAy bReaK, wHiLe a cIrCle wILL nEvEr eNd.."
hehe, came across this & think is quite funny... so check it out!something funny~! .:dAbEe:. 6:14 PM
