wow... today's a boring day... boring second half of the day maybe, since i only woke up like 4pm.. ha, yesterday night talk on the phone with jiarong til like near 3am.. then dunno why dilly dally here and there abit then went to sleep. before we hung up jiarong wanted to bet who would be more pig you see. the person who woke up first is supposed to msg the other to 'ren shu'.. i thought i will lose, since jr is such a pig... but guess what? he msg me about 10-11am... i won... being the pig.. (",)
what else can i do? i went online since i'm not supposed to go out(gota be present for family dinner at grandparents' place).. added a few more contacts to my icq list... still waiting for some to authorise me... haha, i was really sotong sia... bruce added me to his list and i forgot who is he! when in the first place i'm the one who requested for his authourisation... hee~ anyway, so then we chatted for a while... he told me a little about his romance history.. haha, thanks to my 'kayponess'.. =PpP of course got exchange abit of gossips la.. wahaha~
hmmm, when you take some time off to really think about what you've done, how you've come to accept things the way they are.. you'll be surprised how much you've overlooked the numerous mistakes and faults.
you learn to choose to omit certain parts of things you see, words you hear or contents you know... so that you can just move on, have a better life than if you've chosen to consider every single bit of detail..
some things are just like that. you can never accept it totally, you have to seem that you can take it even if you actually can't. just vent it on something else later on and trust me, you will feel much much better..
of course another thing would be a matter of adaptation. if you can adapt to the way things are going, then it should not be a problem to stay feeling neutral towards it...
i guess every single person is self-centred to a certain extent. no matter how strong you may seem on the outside, you desperately need someone, something for you to elicit sympathy. it's a time for you to take off you mask and look at yourself in the mirror to see the real reflection of yourself...
your pain may be alleviated, or enhanced... i'm not sure... anyhow, it's better than doing it otherwise whereby you think you can relieve your pain and sorrow... only to realise that it turns out spreading across your whole body, or even pass it on to more people like any contagious virus...
by the way can anyone tell me how to post pictures in my diary? hee~ just leave me a note if you happen to know oki? thanx a million!~ =)
"wHeN sOmEoNe iS mEaN tO yOu, KiLL tHeM wIth kIndNeSs.. yOu sHoUlD kNoW sOmEtImEs pArdOn iS tHe mOsT gLorIoUs rEvEngE..."
