today nothing really interesting happened at work. somehow i find time passed really slowly at the cafe. somemore i got some problem with my left eye.. it has been red and painful ever since i woke up this morning. is it sore eye? i don't know, but i'm not going to visit a doctor.. ^gRinNz^
there's this cute malay guy who came in for interview at the cafe around 4pm. when he walked in, i was like thinking "ok, finally someone interesting has decided to'walk' into my boring day.." =) i asked him how old is he and he's 21 years of age.. unfortunately, he's married to a 23 year old woman and he actually has 2 kids!~ can you believe it? he's got a son aged 2 years and daughter 6 months old.. my supervisor decided not to employ him but i argued that he's got experience in f&b so in the end we kept his application in view.. he's still working at devil's bar as a bartender... hmmm, shall visit him if i have the chance? haha...
after work i went to meet jasc at bugis.. actually should go home eat dinner coz my mama not happy i so many days never go home for dinner. but i decided to shop for a while since i'm not hungry. i spend $27.20 on a green top/dress.. after a 20% discount.. haha. i don't plan to let my mother find out about it as she's going to slaughter me if she realise that i've been spending like nobody's business! jasc bought a halter top $9! the shop's having closing sale you see.. and she look good in that top.
well, sometimes i wonder how strong the feelings you have for 1 person is needed to make you sort of like 'destroy' your life.. ok, maybe destroy is too serious. let's say cause depression/frustration over the slightest things? i guess i can never understand how you see things coz i do see in in a different view... an outsider's view maybe? to me it's rather obvious that it's definitely not worth it to do what you're coz many others can do the same thing and he will have the same perception towards them as well? to me, he is still on the search for the 'perfect' one. you did say ppl tend to treasure things more when they cannot get them. so... aiya, i also don't know what the crap i'm writing.
i realise that when it comes to this kind of things, as in bgr, i'm too rational to be in one at the moment, though i feel that it'll be nice to be in a relationship. i think as long as you've tried, it's good enough. at least it saves you from all the regrets later on when you start wondering why the hell you didn't do it then?
"gIvInG sOmEoNe aLL yOuR LovE iS nEvEr aN aSsUrAnCe tHat tHeY'll LovE yOu bAcK. dOn"t eXpEcT LovE iN rEtUrN, jUsT wAit fOr iT tO gRow iN tHeiR hEaRts bUt iF iT dOesN't, bE cOnteNteD iT gReW iN yOurS..."
