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Saturday, April 26, 2003

 
Tuesday 22 April 2003



^gRoUnDeD...^



what to do when you are sick, especially at this time of the year? yeah... get grounded... banned from going out. so here i am at home...



i'm feeling much better already, now with the fever gone. my throat still hurts though... haha~ was downloading songs while reading my book "Mystic River" by Dennis Lehane... not a very nice book lorz... i'm struggling to finish last few chapters... hope the next book i read will be much better..



anyway, my sis came home after school while i was reading telling me she's hungry...(haha, what's new?) though my mum already cooked porridge before she went for work, my sis wanted something more... but then i was too lazy to think of what to cook, i just fried some chicken nuggets i found in the freezer and a scrambled egg... haha~ she finished them all! thought she would save some for me you know... =( anyway, i couldn't have eaten fried stuff since i'm dowm with sore throat...



when i'm done frying, i decided to clear my refrigerator abit..(my goodness, you should see how the things fall out when i open the fridge!) i found the remaining packet of flour i used for baking cookies and i thought it was taking up too much useful space... so i finished using the flour... to bake cookies of course...(it's the most time-saving). if i hadn't stop my sis, she could have eaten almost the whole lot!



ha, finally i responded to this collegue's confession... this morning... well, i received some msgs from him yesterday night which i thought were quite 'weird'.. maybe coz i was rather tired esp after i took medicine that makes me drowsy... i did not reply, haha... anyway, i thought he was drunk you see... but then this morning he msg again saying he's honest and sincere about it, haven't felt this way since his ex-gf passed away about a year ago... and he wants to know how i feel... so i told him i'm not suitable for him and he can find someone better larz... he replied telling me he's very sad, asking me why... erm, so i said he's just a friend, nothing else, no chemistry... blah blah blah... anyway, i'm contented with my freedom right now... and i never got his reply... so i should leave it as it is? haa~ duno lar... actually he did say that he liked me quite some time ago... but that time he was really drinking so i 'bo hiew' him...



though this kind of thing not first time happen but i oso not expert sia... siao siao... =PpP



why is it that most of the time the people you are not interested in owas interested in you? and vice versa... sianz man... silly crab said that's life... that's what makes the chase exciting... i think it's tiring lorz... haha. he also said you won't know the person you like won't reciprocate unless you ask... i only agree to limited extent ba... =)



need not necessarrily spell it out ba... can drop hints? duno larz... before you really fall into something you test water first mah... then you know cannot make it then don't force lor... know what i mean? as in don't fall further into it when you know it will not turn out as you wish... eh, how come i'm thinking this way? dunno... i used to think it's no big deal to just say... maybe i'm becoming more cautious now? maybe i'm starting to look at the big picture...



when you want to achieve something... you need to consider many other details right? like how your family and friends are going to think, whether they can welcome your actions with open arms... and whether you can take it or not... i have to agree that peer pressure plays an important role in many of your decisions from unimportant details like which hair clip to use to major choices like which college/course to sign up for... no matter how comfortable you may be with something/someone... most likely you will suffer if your friends or family just cannot accept them. alright, maybe you will not suffer, but you're bound to feel unhappy about it... haiz, sad to say, peer pressure can be really suffocating at times... so, probably you can never attain the freedom desired ba... there are just so many things to think about before you can decide what you should do or even how you can feel... =(



what to do? that's life...

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